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Bye Bye Semester 1

Applause~ I’ve completed my semester one of my study. Alhamdulillah. Since then, I started to write again. I can’t even imagine that my whole 5 months of studying will be terrible experiences at all. True, it took a lot of passion to balance up between job, study and personal life simultaneously. That is why most of students gave up on their study or took full time mode.

The most critical part is when I’ve to choose whether to attend a class or important weds of my good good friends. I nearly have to forgo most of important events when it comes to priority of completing study. Even, I also barely got a chance to go back hometown, spending time with family. I’ve experience left zero cents inside my wallet throughout months because of need to provide petty stuffs for my study. Gladly, I was stronger enough to get through those situations. For those who felt neglected along the process, I’m truly sorry. I can’t manage my time well between personal leisure and for my boys, my girls, my colleagues, my family and my love. Thank you for being so supportive. Hope everything will be better since herein. L.O.V.E~

I hope to be The ONE

Mother & Father,
  I hope to be The ONE that u adore,
  I hope to be The ONE that u proud of,
  I hope to be The ONE that u can smile with,
  I hope to be The ONE that u bring along,
  I hope to be The ONE that u want me to BE...
  I've tried too many times but yet I couldn't get there...
  I'm truly sorry...
  Love U~

ONLY IF

ONLY if I knew you might fall in love with me,

  I won't further let it be,

ONLY if I think my words promising you anything,

  I won't say a thing,

 ONLY if I can predict you will love me for this deep,

  I won't let it happen,

ONLY if I expect things going to be worse,

  I won't damn let myself get closer to you,

ONLY if my apologize can sooth you,

  I will say it right now that I'm sorry for hurting you.

                                                               -110111-

Terrible Moment

2011 begins with a nightmare for me after my wonderful pet, Ajan had being kidnapped by the schizoid named Shamin Hafriz Shariman and the gang. They asked for expiation money. I don't have that much of money. Please let me know if you ever see this beautiful creature. TQ.

Birthday for myself

Just woke up from a nightmare

with a heavy cloud in my head

with my pink-elephant sleeping on right

with my red-heart pillow laying on left

and the fan circling fast upon

waiting for someone to come

with a bucket full of flowers

for a balmy and breezing morning

ringing my name by a bell

and swaying gracious birthday song to my ears

with his lips on my forehead

with his embrace dedicating love to me

so I remember the green moment

till darkness calls again.

"Laughter is the closest distance between two people - Victor Borge"

** Thank you to everyone who's celebrating my 26th childhood anniversary yesterday. May god bless you all hereafter.  

A Letter to Nana

Dear Sweetheart,

Hopefully you are in a very soothing condition. Coz now I’m sitting down here lonely underneath sorrow light outside your home missing those moments we’ve spent together ever since. We both knew that we are suppose to live together for our entire life but death took me away just before we could sense the true colourful world life. And I did remember how you cried madly on that bright morning like you never want it to happen. I know sweetheart, I missed you too.

I had a dream last night. I met a man selling flowers at our neighbourhood street. I did have a vision that I’m riding a bike while passing him. He called me by name “Hey kid!” out of sudden and waving for me to come nearer him. He offered me a bucket full of white roses for free. He smiled and convinced me to take it. He said that I need it for my journey onwards. With a little hesitation, I grab the flowers and thanking him. The flowers made my journey balmy and wonderful. I could not stop thinking about the flower man and his gift.

At the end of the road, I saw a girl stood still at a corner holding a tasty candy in her right hand while tilting her head up upon the tree. I stopped and looked up upon the tree as same as her point of view. I saw a kite which I thought belong to her. So I climbed up the tree and took it for her. She smiled without a word when I returned the kite and gave me the colourful candy as a thankful taught. I kissed her on forehead and continue riding my bike.

My journey was not only balmy and wonderful but also colorful since then and here. After few moments of silence, I just recalled what our mother says about life. Life is basically white in birth; it left us how to paint it. We should paint it colourfully so that we can see our life gracefully. The flower man and the girl reminded me of you. We lived together in mother’s womb last twenty-six years so I’m apart of you and you are me. I hope you did well hereafter. I’ll be forever sitting down here watching over you and pray for your best. Dear Sweetheart, today is our childhood anniversary, I do miss you and I do love you.

Regards;
Your Other Half